I am unable to go to sleep tonight, just thinking about my little boy, and how things would be if he were here with us. He would be three years old today, it's hard to believe it has went faster than I ever would have imagined. When we lost our little boy our lives came to a complete stop, I didn't know what to do, how to act, how to feel, or even what I would tell people. How would I tell them our son was gone? I can't even begin to explain all the emotions I was dealing with. But somehow my life continued even though at the time I never thought it would. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of him. And I ask Jesus to give him a hug and kiss from mommy every night when I say my prayers. It has become easier to deal with over time, but this day always seems to be the hardest. We went to the cemetery tonight and left flowers and a happy birthday balloon for our little guy, and we'll visit again tomorrow.
~~God Take This Child~~~
By Nancy Scott
Sweet child whom we never really got to know, Its hard for us to let you go.
We waited and we wanted you. We had so many dreams for you.
We think of smiles we'll never see. We think of events that will never be.
There will be no first steps and no first teeth. There is only a void and our own grief.
We planned to take you to places far and near.
We yearned to keep you safe and free from fear.
We hoped to show you much of your new world. We wanted to teach you as your life unfurled.
Its hard to understand why you, our baby, died.
We feel so numb right now, many tears we've cried. We have so many questions and no answers seem to come. We tried so hard to save you; nothing could be done.
God, we stand before you broken-hearted and ask you to heal these lives that must be parted from this little one we can no longer hold, who will always be a part of us, even when we're old.
God, take this child in your loving arms. No more can he suffer any harm.
Bless him always and bless us too. Be with us and help us to make it through.
~~Ian Kristopher Sterling~~ You will always hold a very special place in Mommy & Daddy's Hearts. We will never forget our sweet baby boy! 8/5/2005
